December 18, 2017

John 11:35 (ESV) — 35 Jesus wept.

What would have to happen to make you cry? Do you remember the last time you cried? So what caused you to cry? I remember the last time that I really cried and I mean really cried. It was about a year or so ago and the thought of my nephew Nathan popped into my head and almost immediately I started to cry uncontrollably. I cried and cried until my eyes and nose started to run with liquid.

Nathan was killed in a car accident about 20 years ago. When he was a kid he used to stay with us for weeks at a time in the summer. He and Jeremy were only a couple a months apart in age and they had great fun playing together.  I would join in and play basketball, baseball, and other outdoor games. They loved to play in mud puddles and were usually covered from head to toe in squishy mud. And of course I would let them. I mean after all they were boys and that is what boys do, right:) Then when they were done I would spray them clean with water from our garden hose. I loved Nathan and he loved his ‘uncle Dan’.

He was very athletic but he had asthma and it was difficult for him to breathe and I think it affected his growth because he couldn’t gain much weight and as a result remained pretty skinny. I never felt like his dad and mom got him the proper doctor care. Other things always seemed more important to them then getting their son proper health care. The never took care of him spiritually either. His mom and dad never got him to church and they didn’t teach him about Jesus. He had two younger brothers who got most of the attention because they didn’t have “health issues”.

Nathan graduated from high school and ran with the wrong kind of kids. He started using cocaine and was killed in a car accident when he was using. This happened right before his 21st birthday. All these thoughts popped into my head and overwhelmed me and that’s when the tears came. I was wondering where Nathan was spending eternity and I cried even harder. I know that when Nathan was with us as a little boy he had prayed to receive Jesus. And through my tears I heard myself saying. “Father, you had mercy on Nathan right, you had mercy on Nathan right?”

It was at Lazarus’ grave that we find Jesus weeping. Our verse says that Jesus wept. Which means he was crying tears. What caused Jesus to cry tears? Was it just because his friend Lazarus would no long be around. Was he crying for Mary and Martha because they had just buried their brother? But by knowing Jesus we may be able to speculate. In the next couple days  I want to speculate as to what would bring God to tears.

Jeremiah 9:24 (NLT) — 24 But those who wish to boast should boast in this alone: that they truly know me and understand that I am the Lord who demonstrates unfailing love and who brings justice and righteousness to the earth, and that I delight in these things. I, the Lord, have spoken!

Be Inspired Hilltop!


  1. Mary Anne Frank says

    When my dad took his own life my grief was raw. I had always called him ‘Daddy’ because that’s who he was…a quiet , kind, loving man who served others. In my raw grief I literally cried out to God for a word of encouragement, a word of hope. When I opened my bible it fell open to Romans 9: 15-16 which says: For God said to Moses, “I will show mercy to anyone I choose, and I will show compassion to anyone I choose.” So it is God who decides to show mercy. We can neither choose it nor work for it.
    I knew then that God knew my daddy in the moment he died and knew his incredible pain and loneliness. I knew that he was wrapped in the loving arms of his Heavenly Father. Like Mary and Martha I needed a word of hope. And I know that Jesus wept with me in the worst grief I have ever experienced.
    I believe that Jesus weeps over all the Nathan’s of this world. But in Him we always have hope.